My One Word for 2016: Remain

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This took me long enough. :)

For the past three years I made it a point skip the New Year’s resolutions and just pick one word that would help me align my plans and goals for the year. In 2014, my one word was passion. Last year, it was pursue

Can you tell, based on those two huge words—pursue and passion—how intense the past 2 years were for me?

Don’t get me wrong, the past 2 years were amazing in every way and I can only be grateful for all of it; but there were many times also that I had to pull myself together and fight through the overwhelm and burnout.

Enter 2016 and I went spiraling down and falling into one of the lowest points of my creative and professional life.

I wanted to quit everything.  Continue reading “My One Word for 2016: Remain”

Courageous Caitie

The little girl’s name is Caitlin Soleil Lucas, or Caitie. She is 3 years old and diagnosed with a rare kind of cancer.

It all started with ‘insect bite’-like rashes that showed up on her legs last September. This progressed to critical symptoms such as severe abdominal pain, enlarged spleen and liver, abnormal CBC and chronic diarrhea, among others. Caitie has since gone through a series of procedures and tests for life-threatening diseases, including bone marrow aspirations and blood transfusions.

Because of the rarity of her condition, Caitie’s family had to go through the agony of not having a diagnosis for over two months, and therefore not having a definite treatment plan. Finally, after transferring to Singapore to seek more advanced medical testing and treatment, the doctors have arrived at a diagnosis.

She is diagnosed to have Juvenile Myelomonocytic Leukemia, a rare form of leukemia that affects 1.2 out of one million children ages 4 and below.  Continue reading “Courageous Caitie”

Selah: Pause & Reflect

Lately I’ve been waking up in the morning feeling all sorts of panic. I’ve been losing sleep, juggling too many projects at the same time, getting my deadlines and commitments mixed up, having too many unanswered messages, drowning in lists, bills, codes.

And then there’s the struggle with raising twin toddlers who are growing way too fast, and that nagging guilt that comes with not being able to be there for them as much as I want/need.

That’s not to say that I’m unhappy. There’s so much to be grateful for—I love my job, I have a work setup that’s very supportive of my family’s circumstances, I’m able to earn a bit from something I love to do on the side, I belong to a community I’m passionate about, and have a growing network of clients, collaborators and friends. Most of all, I have two happy and healthy kids, a supportive and loving husband, roof above our heads, food on the table, a warm bed at night.

I guess the “panic” comes from feeling tired all the time, and being frustrated about the lists that never end, the hours that don’t seem to be enough, and the fact that I have to keep working even when sometimes working is the last thing I want to do.  Continue reading “Selah: Pause & Reflect”

Love Him Well

Missing Dad

My Dad wrote these words for me on my 18th birthday. Everyday I remember these words (and every year on March 26 I post it on my wall ️), praying that I will be able to love God well and that it will be evident in my actions, my thoughts, my life. Not an easy thing to do, not at all, but I always remember my Dad’s life and how, as imperfect and challenging as it had been, we can always remember him to have lived these very words—He loved God well.

It’s been exactly 8 years today since my Dad passed away, but his life and his legacy lives on. I’m so blessed and proud to be his daughter, and to have been a recipient of the rewards of his (and my Mom’s) obedience, many of which we still reap, even until today.

I miss you, Daddy! Thank you for setting an example, and for showing us that it’s not impossible to live a life of love and service and passion. Love you always.

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Trust Him With All Your Heart

Proverbs 3:5-6 is my life verse. For someone who can be so doubtful and skeptical and analytical, TRUSTING is just so hard for me to do. My tendency is to make calculated steps; often I find myself needing to see first before I believe.

In the recent years God has taught me a whole new level of trust. I’m not saying I’ve mastered it, not at all, I’m still a work in progress. But one thing I did learn is that sometimes—most times—I don’t need to see one or two or a dozen steps ahead, I just have to say YES to Him, right now, and just trust Him with the details.

Trust becomes easy when you know exactly Who to trust, and for me it’s the One who holds the future (and the present!) in His hands and knows what He’s doing. His promises are real. Whatever you’re going through today, just trust God. He will direct your path, just as He promised He would.

Sometimes, God Affirms in the Most Unlikely Places

A funny thing happened last Saturday while the four of us were grocery shopping. Landmark was closing and we had to rush, so my husband and I had to split, him with Dawn and me with Rain.

So as I was pushing my cart through an isle of biscuits, a tall guy approached me. It would have been really creepy if he wasn’t carrying an adorable baby girl. He asked me, “Hello. Are you the one on Instagram, the one who’s selling Passion Cards?” I stared at him blankly with a dozen questions in my head, but his wife, standing behind him with their two other kids, jumped in to say “Hi, I’m Patti. I ordered some passion cards!”

The oddity of her recognizing me and Rain, and of us being in the same place at the same time was just, crazy. Good for her, she didn’t have to make a trip to the bank, she just paid me for the cards she ordered right there and then. Good for me, though it started out a bit weird, it ended up to be an affirmation that this *thing* is really going places! It reminded me that my labor is not in vain, and encouraged me to reach out and inspire more people with His Word and for His glory.

Hello, Patti, if you’re reading this. It was great meeting you, even in the weirdest of ways :)