So I’ve been creatively scribbling stuff on my journal with my G-tech and Artline pens these days, and I’m kinda loving the beautiful mess my journal has become. I love that I’m excited about something artsy/crafty again.
God has been teaching me a lot these days about being calm, gentle, and graceful under pressure; and being content and selfless in making choices.
You know, stuff that great mothers are made of.
And it’s terrifying because it doesn’t feel like a long time ago when I was the baby of the house, and everyone attended to my needs, and all I had to think about was myself.
I was always restless—my feet always needing to go somewhere, my mind wandering in another country, my hand itching to book plane tickets or to swipe my credit card to buy something I already have a dozen of.
But now that my 5-month bump is growing bigger and bigger each week, and my husband and I are crossing the 1-year mark as a married couple, I find myself learning more and more to put other people’s lives on top of my own.
Most of all, I’m learning to let go of old dreams to make room for these new ones.
I sometimes worry about what kind of mother I’m going to be like. I do know what kind of mother I DON’T want to be, I think that one’s easier to figure out. But when I think about the kind of mother I want to be and how far I am from being that person, I panic like you have no idea.
This morning, this passage popped up from the pages of my Bible, and I think I’ll be mulling over these words for the next couple of days:
Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. (Proverbs 3:3)
Love and faithfulness, that’s it! As I try to move towards becoming the best Mommy I can be, I know love and faithfulness is exactly where I have to start.
Deep breaths.
i am so excited for you, Riz. Your passion inspires me. Keep pressing on! You don’t kknow who’s lives you’re touching with your blog.
God has been teaching me a lot these days about being calm, gentle, and
graceful under pressure; and being contented and selfless in making
choices. You know, stuff that great mothers are made of. — same here. motherhood really changes a woman..for the better. wait ’til you finally see the babies and you will know what real selflessness means. it’s going to be a challenge but be assured that God will be with you always. the past 3 years of my life as a mother has been a great adventure not just with the husband and the baby but discovering more of God’s greatness. ibang klase talaga si Lord!