22/52: Double Ponytails and Loombands

Photographs of my daughters, once a week, every week, this 2014. Week 22.

22/52: Dawn & Rain

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Sunday afternoon as usual, back from church, wearing these pretty dresses that are still a little too big, which I love, because they almost look like maxi dresses. (At least they can wear these dresses until they’re 3.)

With the twins mastering the art of posing by that wall, these weekly photo sessions have become a whole lot easier and more fun for this trigger-happy mommy right here. My only challenge now is the blogging part, which is taking a little more time.

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22/52: Dawn & Rain

22/52: Dawn & Rain

22/52: Dawn & Rain

The truth is, I’ve ran out of ways to describe how it’s like—being a mommy to D & R, seeing them grow, watching them discover the world, witnessing their little milestones every day. At this point I’ve overused the words amazing, awesome, epic, beautiful, lovely, and crazy and yet, even those words come off short.

22/52: Dawn

22/52: Dawn

22/52: Dawn

22/52: Dawn

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This past month, Dawn has learned to sing the “e-i-a-i-a-o” part of Old McDonald. She sings it ALL. THE. TIME. She would stand in front of our full-length mirror and sing e-i-a-i-a-o. She would sing it while taking a bath, while playing, while pooping. Sometimes, even the sound of her cries is e-i-a-i-a-o. 

Seriously, I never imagined I’d be so grateful to Old McDonald for having a farm until today.

22/52: Rain

22/52: Rain

22/52: Rain

22/52: Rain

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Rain, meanwhile, is our baby fashionista. She likes wearing stuff, like that loomband and those plastic beads she had on in the above pictures, which by the way, she wore on her own without my help. She likes carrying bags too, and wearing hats, and wearing rubber bands and bangles on her arms.

One time we even caught her trying to wear MY tank top! Oh my goodness. :) Where did you learn these things, little girl?

22/52: Rain & Daddy

22/52: Dawn Rain Daddy

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Such sweethearts, these two. Me and their Daddy are crazy about them. <3 (OT: I’m crazy about maxi skirts these days too, I know!)

Also, I.. can’t stop taking pictures!!

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22/52: Dawn & Rain

Shoutout to their Auntie Abiel for their dresses, and to Ate Jasmine their loombands. Thank you! :)

22/52: Dawn & Rain

22/52: Dawn & Rain

Ok, ok, I’m done.

More about Project 52 here. View all posts in this blog series here.

21/52: Home is Wherever I’m With You

Photographs of my daughters, once a week, every week, this 2014. Week 21.

21/52: Dawn & Rain

21/52: Dawn & Rain

Once upon a time, my husband and I lived in a roof top apartment. It was our first home, with just enough living space for two and a huge outdoor area that held some of our most memorable experiences as a newly married couple. We had a lot of memories in that rooftop, until we got pregnant and had to move to a bigger space on a lower floor.

Visiting the roof top apartment now, this time with our two little girls, makes me feel a little nostalgic. It wasn’t long ago when it was just the two of us, and now, we’re four, and wow there’s really no stopping time from moving forward.

21/52: Dawn & Rain

21/52: Dawn & Rain

21/52: Dawn & Rain

21/52: Dawn & Rain

As someone who’s moved from one place to another far too many times in the past decade, I’ve come to terms with the fact that houses are temporary, and “home” is that which you bring with you wherever in the world you go. Home can be a place, and it can also be a person, or a group of people, or a collection of memories. But home is not confined to a place, I guess that’s why a new house or a new city or a new country doesn’t instantly make you feel “at home”.

That’s kind of what’s going through my mind every time we go back to the roof top. It doesn’t feel like home anymore. The vines have grown unkempt, some of the plants have dried up, the walls are dirty, the windows are dusty. And yet, in the midst of the strangeness of what used to be a familiar place, I hear Dawn & Rain scream and laugh and run around while their Daddy chase them, and suddenly, there it is. My home, right there with me.

21/52: Dawn & Rain

21/52: Dawn & Rain

Today as I post this, Ivy is on her one-way flight to New York to join her husband there for good. And maybe I’ll rant a handful about that in a separate post, but in a nutshell, her departure is making me think about how temporary most things are in this life. Babies grow, children get older, people leave and move and start a new life elsewhere.

I once wrote about saying goodbye, and the realization remains true:

Change involves pain, and pain forces us to grow. It causes us to see situations with eternal eyes, and teaches us the art of letting God do His thing. It helps us loosen our grip off tangible things—people, places, routines; and causes us to embrace the more important things, the ones that last forever—friendships, memories, lessons learned, love that transcends space and time.

I’ve struggled about moving my whole life, mostly because I’ve become a little too attached to places, to people, or to the memories associated with them. I hate saying good bye. I don’t like packing. Moving scares me and I wondered many times why I kept doing it.

But something about my best friend leaving, and now having David, Dawn and Rain in my life, that gives me this new-found courage, this quiet assurance. The assurance that wherever in the world the Lord takes us, whether we stay or move, whether friends leave or we leave.. we’ll be okay. As long as we’re together, home is wherever we go.

More about Project 52 here. View all posts in this blog series here.

20/52: Tutus and rubber shoes

Photographs of my daughters, once a week, every week, this 2014. Week 20.

20/52: Dawn & Rain

20/52: Dawn & Rain

One Sunday morning in May, I dressed up the twins in tutus and rubber shoes. It was one of those not-so-rare moments when I feel so grownup and so much like a kid at the same time. Obviously, dressing them up is one of my most favorite Mommy “perks”, and with little girls like these, can you blame me?

As I was taking out the camera that morning, the most adorable thing happened. Dawn & Rain happily positioned themselves with their backs on the wall, on their own, grinning at me as if ready to have their photographs taken!

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20/52: Dawn & Rain

20/52: Dawn & Rain

20/52: Dawn & Rain

20/52: Dawn & Rain

I’m not sure if I should smack myself in the head or give myself a high five. Apparently, this weekly photo session has become a habit to them as it has to me that they already know their spot on that wall. Good job, girls!

20/52: Dawn & Rain and Daddy

And then their Daddy came out and started singing songs.

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If you’re happy and you know it, clap your hands!

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If you’re happy and you know it, stomp your feet!

And then they sat on the stairs and posed some more.

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And then Dawn looked at me like this, and how can you not take photographs of her when she’s looking at you that way right?

20/52: Dawn

20/52: Dawn

She knows when someone’s taking a picture of her, you guys, she does.

Just a few more shots, with Mommy this time, and then it was time to go to church.

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Happy babies, happy mommy.

The truth is, toddlers are a handful. Make that twin toddlers and you probably lost your mind just now when you tried to imagine how it’s like.

They make you chase them around in circles, their high-pitched screams sometimes give you (and everyone in the room) headache, they can’t sit or stay in one place longer than one minute. They “talk” a lot, but none of it you can understand. You try to teach them words, but they can’t seem to pick up about 98% of them.

It’s a frustrating, tiring, and demanding stage.

But it’s a beautiful stage nonetheless. The precious smiles, the kisses, the laughter.. I’m cherishing every moment. Every single one.

More about Project 52 here. View all posts in this blog series here.

19/52: Bye Summer!

Photographs of my daughters, once a week, every week, this 2014. Week 19.

19/52: Dawn

19/52: Rain

These photographs were captured one lovely May afternoon at the UP Town Center. It was the golden hour, and I was happy to take outdoor photos of the twins for a change, a break from the usual photo sessions we do at home.

What a beautiful day to chase toddlers! :)

19/52: Dawn & Rain

19/52: Dawn & Rain

19/52: Dawn & Rain

19/52: Dawn & Rain

19/52: Dawn & Rain

19/52: Us

Hearts on our dresses. Just pointing it out, in case you missed it. :P

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19/52: Dawn

19/52: Dawn

 Dawn: This girl knows how to smile when she sees a camera pointed at her!

19/52: Rain

19/52: Rain

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Rain: Is quick clap her hands and “praise the Lord” every time we start singing songs. 

19/52: With Daddy

19/52: With Daddy

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19/52: With Daddy

19/52: With Daddy

I think baby girls look good on him. :)
I will never get tired taking photographs of these three!

Thank you, summer of 2014, for bringing us happy, sunshiney days like this one. See you again next year!

More about Project 52 here. View all posts in this blog series here.

Update: This week is supposed to be Week 26. I’m too far behind! So I’m self-imposing a One Week Challenge, just to get all of my 52 Week Project backlogs out. Can you handle photographs of the twins everyday this week? (I’m not sure I can!) :D

My Hillsong Story is NOT My Story

If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’ll know that I’ve recounted this story many many times. It’s a story I love talking about because God has taught me so many things through this experience—lessons on trusting His perfect timing, never giving up on dreams that He has planted in our hearts, and holding on to the truth that His ways are always higher than ours.

Today I’m in the mood to put together this little timeline!

Hillsong Story

(Click the image to zoom in.)

I never really made it to the Hillsong Conference

Looking at this timeline, you’ll notice that I never really made it to the Hillsong Conference at all. After my last attempt in  2009, I sort-of stopped trying. Not really because I gave up on the dream, it was mostly because God has planted new dreams in my heart. I was in New York in 2010, got married in 2011, gave birth to twins in 2012, landed a new job in 2013, and well, there really wasn’t any time (and budget!) to squeeze in Hillsong Conference the past 5 years.

My priorities shifted to easing into this new life with my husband and raising our little family. And although I still daydream about experiencing the Hillsong Conference, it’s one of those things I’ve set aside for later.

Still, this Hillsong story remains to be one of my “stones of remembrance”, something I always look back to, to reflect on what God has been doing in my life, or when I need to encourage a friend.  Continue reading “My Hillsong Story is NOT My Story”

Chasing Dreams, Year 5

Year 5

This blog post has been waiting to happen since Monday night when I re-launched, but every time I try to finish it, I always end up fixing other things in the site (OC stuff). Anyway, here it goes, finally.

Welcome to the all new Chasingdreams.net!

As June 19 was approaching, the date of domain renewal for Chasingdreams.net, I had to think really hard and consider how I want to take this site moving forward. I have to admit, the thought of trading this *ehem* cheesy-sounding domain name for a more serious, professional portfolio-sounding one crossed my mind countless of times. But, needless to say, I just couldn’t let “Chasing Dreams” go.

And it’s not only because I’ve invested the past 5 years of my life in this site, or that I’m too lazy to think of a better name. Mostly it’s because my life advocacy and desire has grown deeply embedded within the two words that make up this domain name, which means it didn’t make sense to change my online brand anymore.

Granted I registered this site at a time I was feeling lost and directionless, needing an online channel for my own selfish purposes. But God has a way of turning things around for His glory, which is exactly what happened to this site.

And so we came to this point. Five years. Hey, that’s the longest I’ve kept a domain name in my 13 years of blogging! The first two domain names I owned lasted for a total of 3+ years, not counting the free-hosted blogs. Five years is a lot of time in the blogging community and I want to do a little victory dance for having kept it this long. At five years, I thought it was the perfect time to do this overhaul of sorts.

What’s New

If you’ve been reading/lurking on this blog for a while, you should be able to connect the dots. I’ve mentioned this “change” in this post when I decided that I needed to start fresh. When I talked about pursuing my passions at the start of the year, I knew that this is one of them. When I redesigned the blog in February, I also said as early as then that I was foreseeing major changes happening around here come mid-year.

Relaunch!

My desire for this site is to be a channel that would inspire others to pursue their dreams and the calling that God has for them. (While also pursuing my dreams and the calling God has for me.) For a long time I imagined doing this through blog posts and photographs, and through a generous serving of my life story. I want to believe that we can all learn from each other, and we can use these God-given experiences to encourage and inspire other people for His glory.

But while I was doing that, this platform has extended my reach to female bloggers, creative entrepreneurs, and men and women who have specific dreams and visions for their own businesses and their own blogs. People who, just like me, have something to say/offer and dreams to chase.

For people who, just like me, have something to say and dreams to chase.

And so I started helping people build their own online platforms, after office hours. I’ve began helping design their websites, blogs, and even special events. Most of my projects lately are collaborations with people who are aching to fill this same hole, who desire to help others find their niche, and their voice, online.

And oh. my. heart. It feels sooooo good. So good to exercise my passion in design, while also helping others, while also earning on the side. The monetary part is the cherry on top of the icing on the cake, but well, if I get to do something that doesn’t feel like work and it pays the bills too, why not right? :)

In the next few weeks I’m going to start posting my recent design work and building up my portfolio. I have many many many dreams for this space, and I hope you feel excited as I am. :)

To know more about my dreams for this site, and the road to getting here, feel free to read these related posts: